I FEEL for YOU
All that I feel, displayed here for you..as you deserve to know it..
:) I trust you LOLers (i.e my blog visitors <3) enough to blare myself in front of you all...
My random overwhelmed feelings that I want you all to know, if you are interested..... <3
03:27 PM 12/11/2015- FEELING INACTIVE
Hey, LOLers. They say that change is the only thing which is never changing. I guess, none of us will deny that. It has been almost 4 months since I posted so, yes, a lot has changed. My blog is kind of inactive. I am inactive. everything is inactive XD I havent been well for a while now. Yesterday was Diwali ( A major beautiful festival) and on 7th this month was Dad's birthday, both the days, I wasnt well. Cold, fever and stuff. Now when you are so unwell, you don't feel good about anything. Not even your family and friends. It has been a tough time on this end. Transformation is never easy. People have been working on me to make me mature, others have stood by me but several more were there to bog me down. My life and I have changed the most during this time. In between I had even stopped feeling! (VERY VERY VERY unlike me), I had stopped expressing. I realised that I was giving others too much time. It's the time to change now. To write more, to MYSELF. And, not just to be there for everyone else. No one deserves you as much as you do. Not that everyone is against you. Many will love you. MANY. but, the time spent with oneself is the BEST. I have come to cherish it now. :) My time, with myself and LOLers. <3 Sudden realizations make things so beautiful. The balance is always needed, and here I am, reviving it! So, here I am just saying hi! Telling you I will get back to my blog more frequently. The only thing Im scared about is my 11th and 12th grade, and that studies shouldnt be affected. That I wont get an incentive to leave my blog. People demand so many things, often contradictory, out of me. Havent found a solution to that yet. Tell me if you have. :) Bye for now. You will be called LOLers again when you talk to me on my profile now. XD <3
06:29 PM 13/7/2015- FEELING PULLED BACK
Problems. Problems Problems. I'm so STUCK. I've homework, studies, blog, competitions and PAST.
My past is haunting me. Everything from my past at the same time! People from my past, weird people, the people who hurt me are coming to my mind. Something or the other is happening and, I'm just losing my grounds, and being reminded of them. them all.
Though, I'm happy to find myself powerful enough to cope up with it better now, than a few months back. This strength is supplied to me by a VERYYYYY close friend of mine, named Vivek. However, I'll have to let him go forever after some time too. I was planning to talk to him and let him go forever today itself! However, these hings happened, and honestly, no one will understand or comfort me the way he does! :( I don't know whether to talk this off with him or not. I want to break this friendship off soon, and I will. I'm just not getting the right time. </3 He means so much to me. He renews everything and everyone who comes his way. He gives everyone a better life and just the BEST experiences. See, LOLers. See my fate. It's so HORRIBLE, ROTTEN AND EMPTY that I couldn't find a better life, even with him. May Shiva bless my friend forever and always with happiness and success. <3
I love you, LOLers.
05:23 PM 3/7/2015- FEELING AMAZED
Hey! This one is a dedication to Justin! He has a lot of problems but, he is SOOOO STRONG! I'm amazed how strong he is! ^______^ He is like my big brother! Any girl will be lucky to get him! His lil angel is also SOOOOO lucky to have a brother like him! ^_________^
<3 LOLer family is SOOOOO proud of you, Justin! Keep calm, keep strong! Heaven's got a plan for you! <3 The worst part of your life will soon be over! :')))
I love you, bro! *huggggg*
06:34 PM 20/5/2015- FEELING TENSED
Over brooding...
I remember how I would reply to a 'Hi' on a group chat when I was busy or even least wanted to, just so that the person doesn't feel bad that no one is replying to them, or feels hesitant before typing the first hi again. I used to take care of even such small details! But, i'm just not the same person anymore. That is so, because I see that I'm the only one over thinking, and being over concern, over-thoughtful and overcareful!
I've changed.
I am a LOLster, I shouldn't change for worse, but it's helping me adapt.
The LOLster who wants to inspire everyone, is so broken inside.
How can she inspire you all if she behaves that way! The only reason she survives is to give you all motivation, there is no other reason for her life.
But, she's losing it. She's losing her dream, and she ca't help it anymore. I am sorry. :(
06:26 PM 20/5/2015- FEELING LONELY
Hey Feeling update after 1 month! I have felt a lot lately! I got an internship of a museum guide! I'm so excited for it! My Grades were good too! However, I feel lonely, because of my friends...
They like, don't care about me anymore. In spite of my LOlers, I feel lonely, because these were friends from so many years and always took care of me, supported me in all that they could. They helped me be what I am today, and yet now, I'm not even dust to them.
If that's so, then I let them go. Even at home, I'm having a tough time with my family. No one cares, I feel. Like, really no one. Like, there is no reason for em to exist.
I have nothing to be proud of. I wish I could just go somewhere all alone away from everything, just being connected to my LOLers!
Currently, I'm not quite happy. Though, I hope I'll be. #NoLove take acre LOLers, I hope you are having a good day. I hope people understand you. I hope you are not going through what I am. take care :) stay blessed!
07:54 PM 21/4/2015- FEELING DEJECTED
Hey LOLers..Long time, right? Anyway! I love you with all the depths of my soul, still! And I hope you love me too. My blog hasn't been very active I admit. I am sorry! Life has changed a lot since before. New school. New regrets. Missing old school. Misunderstandings and *sigh* Let's let it be LOLers. I've reached High School now and have very less time left for myself and writing. I am so sorry. I don't really know how but I will find a way to you guys soon, to be active like before!
Till then just know that I REALLY love you, and each one of you are the most BEAUTIFUL and HANDSOME people I've REALLY REALLY REALLY EVER met. And I mean it.
LOLer rock! I love you. ^_^ You make LOLster the happiest, and she is so blessed to have you all. Thanks for everything. I hope you can wait for me till I'm back in FULL SWING! ;)
Take care.
01:29 PM 26/3/2015- FEELING IN A FIX
So, the morning cracked open to a lot of happening in LOLster's life today. My grandma is fasting due to Navratray. The World Cup is on between Australia and India, and I'm praying for India to win. Zayn had left 1D yesterday, so people are cutting and committing suicide, and I feel helpless as I can't help any of them but, I'm not a directioner. My brother and me are fighting about who will take bath first. There is a hassle in house about my new school, and the exam that follows. My friend, Meghna's birthday. Vaibhav has pissed me off. I am feeling so irritated that I'll have to leave my friends after some time due to change of school. No notifications. No hangouts. I have to study, I can't. I am feeling helpless. I think love is slimy. -_-
I was about to text dad some of my feelings, I drew back. I was about to send some audio for some kids who call me mom. ^_^ :/ But, I'm not in a state to give them my best. PPPPhHHhheEEeeeEEEwwWWWw and, A LOT more things.
Okay.... yeah... Mood swings.
So.. more or less, I can't really help anything happening in my surroundings right now. I am really confused, about..... everything you see?
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I CAN'T EVEN GIVE MY BLOG, MY WHOLE SELF.!?
A pitiable state I am in! :// I don't know anything.
I just wish I could escape the world.... I wish I could just do what I want! I wish I could steal some time for myself. I wish, someone would understand.
Never the less, I love you LOLers. And, it has struck my mind to let go of LOL (my blog). But, I can't, and I won't, because LOLers.
Too long, no? Boring?? ^_^ Bye. I need you all LOLers. You are almost ALL that I have!
04:37 PM 20/3/2015- FEELING PROUD
Hey! LOLers! This one is a tribute to Snigdha Homroy! ;) Doesn't the name itself sound good? :)
She is my LOLer too! And I love her. She was a bit low today, so I want to express how proud I feel to have her as my friend. I am quite happy that she is around me most of the time. She always helps everyone and never refuses if you ask for anything. She is sooooooooooooo sweet, and always makes everyone feel better. Maybe today is her breaking point. A lot of LOLers these days have their breaking points I see. But, Snigdha, on the behalf of each LOLer, I want to tell you that You are AMAZING, and we love you. It's actually true. Being a part of the LOLer family, you have extended warmth to others, and all my LOLers are ready to repay.
YOU DESERVE HAPPINESS, but no one will be able to give it to you, except yourself. We love you. Cheer up. Always here for you. You rock.
12:16 AM 20/3/2015- FEELING DISSATISFIED
It's late at night, and I'm working on my blog. Exams ended today,and I was expected to be really delighted. CRAP.
Wasn't a real good day, anyway. Promoted it on Facebook and G+, anyhow, I find G+ better.
Whatever. I came across a lot of LOLers today, who were sad, and dissatisfied with everything in their lives. So, was I today. HORRIBLE DAY, I tell you LOLers.
Anyway, let's see. I hope things get better. And, Isabella is one of my best LOlers!
She wants to tell you all that she loves you :')
She is also stress and unwell... give her love... We are a LOLer family so, we are obliged to do that no? Spread love ^_^ I hoep you all had a great day anyway. I love it how LOLers are always there for em. Thanks my LOVES :*
07:10 PM 19/3/2015- FEELING LIKE CRYING MY EYES OUT
So, there is this LOLer of mine, whom I really love, his parents 'went to talk to God', but I'm sure they are blessing him by his side. How would they feel if he would cry like that? I understand how hard his life has been till now. I know how he lost the girl he loved, but what about his friends? They are his family. He can't go back to his girl and get his 'Family' in trouble.
My tip: Forget her. Block her. Let her be. You need to move on. I know, how this kills you, and her, but 'Family' is important, isn't it? Whatever happens to the girl, will be based on whats she decides for herself. You are a LOLer, and so, you are not allowed to cry. Stay strong.
We love you for now and forever. Try taking to Mumma Pappa. They will answer. Smile for them , and 'Family' :)
11:57 PM 18/3/2015- FEELING ELATED!
I AM SO DELIGHTED! MY LAST EXAM TOMORROW! After that, all my attention goes to my LOLera nd my blog, solely. I love each and every one of you, never forget that!
03:41 PM 14/2/2015- FEELING LOVED
On this occasion of Valentine, I asked my LOLers if they think I'm in love. Let's see if their guess work is right! XDXD Moreover, I started the page of the comparison about Lord Shiva (My Love), and me. By the way, ALL my LOLers are my Valentines! I love you all! :*
08:56 PM 2/2/2015- FEELING LIKE AN EMOTIONAL FOOL....
Why? Because I am one. This is it! I need to stop hurting myself... </3
07:07 PM 31/1/2015- FEELING NERVOUS....
Hey LOLers! <3 so, I'm feeling better than before now. Also, I'm participating in an essay writing competition by Indialogue. So, that theme is World Harmony. LOLers ;) wait, I'll post for you my submission for the competition. I'm nervous, I haven't won ANY competition till now, but I don't know why you LOLers make me feel like I'm a good writer, anyway! ;) Thanks for that, baes!
<3 LOLster love you, LOLers!
07:28 PM 26/1/2015- FEELING VERY MAIM....
OKAY! I'M FEELING MISERABLE! Gautham, my friend, remember? :/ Okay, we are not friends, anymore. I don't really know, who was the one to dismantle our friendship.
Another close friend lied to me too.
FEELING HORRIBLE! I'm trembling and am just getting the worst feeling I can from my past. I won't like to describe it further, but I pray that it ends soon. Please, I need comfort! I can't take it anymore!!!! </3 LOLers :'( LOLster isn't good, right now.
07:28 PM 26/1/2015- FEELING WARM....
Hey! So, Happy Republic Day!! :) Yesterday, the MUN got over, and guess what! I got a really nice friend named Gautham. The last day when we were leaving, our departure was so warm ^_^
It is very nice to have a friend like him, I mean till now. :) He seems sensible and of course, down-to-earth! He's doing his Journalism course!!!! OH MY GOD!! I WANT TO DO IT TOO! :( LOL! *Touch Wood!* :) I hope we remain friends forever.
I know I haven't won the award of the best journalist, but my 'boss' told me that 'I really appreciate your work, but I couldn't give awards to you or any other student of your school, as you are the host school.' OMG OMG OMG! Him saying it is enough! It's more than the award!! :))))
<3 Thansk LOLers. You guys have given me such confidence to grab this opportunity.. <3
07:29 PM 23/1/2015- FEELING BLESSED....
Hey! So, todayw as my first day at an MUN (If you don't know what that is, click on it.) ! And, it was all so exceptional! First, it was costly, and my dad managed to pay no matter what! "If you are interested in it, I won't mind paying." he told me! And, oh my god! I am acting as a reporter in the International Press!!!!!!! <3 My dream job!!!!! ^_^
Today, was my first day of it. I was not looking very beautiful, of course, but, I tried my best out there. I was a reporter for the SPARKMUN' Order of The Phoenix (That's a link too, which you can check out.) The Executive Board was so awesome, it consisted of Gautam Balaji and Aradhya Tripathi, and no one could fit more for the job! I ushered Gautam to the cantine of my school, and I know SO much about him, already. he seems like a really nice guy! :) Offered me a chocolate almost 5 times, but I refused! XDXDXD Anyway, :) It was the best it could be and the I.P head, Sarabjeet Singh, is my 'boss' or should I say, 'informal boss' for the 3 days of MUN. :) I'm growing as a writer. I know I'm not that good at writing though XD :) But I hope I'll improve. Tomorrow I've to ask question from the Executive Board (i.e Gautam and Aradhya), as a reporter! ^_^ Isn't that so cool? :) <3 I love this MUN thing. Please pray for me to work better. Sir Sarabjeet didn't seem very appeased ;) Anyhow, I want to win the Best Reporter Award too! :( Pray for me, please! :) I hope I achieve it. :) I need to believe in myself <3 Love you LOLers, you read my work, and are always tehre to encourage me! <3 Thanks... :*
03:57 PM 20/1/2015- FEELING THE BEST EVER POSSIBLE ....
Yesterdayw as my birthday! ^_^ Most of my LOLers gave me tremendous amount of love! :) Thanks so much! :) <3 My birthday started with my dad gifting me a phone at 12:00 A.M. which I can sue but only after my exams. :) The day consisted of VERY BEAUTIFUL gifts, and even more EXCEPTIONAL wishes from my friends and LOLers! ^_^ <3
My friends at school gifted em a tasty big cake, and other gifts, like, pens, spiral binds, a promise to obey me for the day, CHOCOLATES! ^_^ And, LOVE!!! :)
BUT BUT BUT... My LOLers were noooooooooo less! ^_^ Their love for me was also multitudinous, and their wishes even better! :* <3
I even had a very good bash, as after all it was my Sweet Sixteen!
I came across some surprises that made me sooooo gleeful too! :)
You were also a part of it as I thought about my LOLers, however, couldn't get to you. Sorry :(
XP But today, I am back to square one, and the day is ordinary. feels odd ;)
Okay, so, I shouldn't be here, but I so wished to! It was my BEST EVER birthday, and all thanks to my loved loved loved LOlers ^_^ :) :)
Wait for me, I am not very regular these days.. :) <3 Thanks a lot for everything!!! I love you all soooooooo much!
03:54 PM 14/1/2015- FEELING RESPONSIBLE ....
So today, I, along with my classmates, went about in the streets shouting for spreading awareness about road safety. Most of the time, they repeated the dialogue after me, and I couldn't stop, so, I've lost my voice XD LOL..
I feel so responsible because of doing it as it feels nice to take the credit of making people aware of Road Safety, which is really essential! <3 Once in a lifetime experience.
Tomorrow, I've my English speaking skills test, pray for me! Love you, LOLers... <3
03:54 PM 14/1/2015- FEELING UNANSWERED....
Hey LOLers <3 I've been trying to work this system out for too long now; the system of question mania. There is a small feature of question mania on the right hand side of my blog. The questions are always about YOU AND ME. I'm nothing without my LOLers! Trust me! <3 This blog is nothing with you! And, I thought of those question to be interactive and thoughtful, but I wonder why I am getting almost NO answers. Should I stop the feature? Would you like to use it LOLers? Message me, or comment? You're view is NEEDED and GREATLY IMPORTANT! <3 Love you LOLers. LOLster will miss you. <3
11:15 PM 12/1/2015- FEELING OBJECTED....
Hey, LOLers? <3 Daddy got stricter than ever. He said that I'd get my laptop only on weekends, now, for a short span of time. :'( That means, your LOLster wouldn't be in contact with you daily. I know, I said that before, but I managed to escape it. This time, the fire is longer and more intense. :'( Exams coming up, the ones that will determine my future. All I can ask for is your prayers, please! And, please, don't forget me or stop loving me less, please! I love you all a lot, LOLers. You all are JUST mine! <3 LOLers!!!!
1:o7 AM 11/1/2015- FEELING LOVED....
I know it's too late for me to post anything, but I am done studying and this is my treat to myself ; my word with my LOLers. <3 I am feeling loved by my LOLers, who continuously encourage me to just improve and never back down. More over, I was conversing with my brother just now, about a post which said that students think about what they would do if a terror attack struck the school, right away! And, my brother told me, that he thought about it too, when he was a school student. He said that he also daydreamed about whom he would save and how? He said that he would save me! <3 AWWWW! I mean I know it's hypothetical, but doesn't he sound cute? It sounds even better when it comes from a brother who NEVER expresses! I am feeling loved because of him also. Though, initially I felt awkward as we are not open to each other much, but we both know how much we love each other, and will always do, in spite of a multitude of fights each day! LOLers, thanks for reading <3 He's elder to me, and is ordering me to sleep now, I've school tomorrow and have to wake up a 5:30! See, how much a love you LOLers? LOLster loves all LOLers.. <3 that is, I love you all! :)
11:35 PM 11/1/2015- FEELING SLEEPY....
I plan to study for a while, now, seriously, and sleep. Who gave me the enough will to be deprived of sleep and study? My well-wishers; my LOLers. Your LOLster thanks you to the core! ^_^ She will study now, and will get you know of her great results. <3 Thanks LOLers!
5:10 PM 11/1/2015- FEELING BLESSED....
So, this really cool LOLer of mine sent me a mail through the contact system on my blog, answering a question of the question mania (you can find it on the right side of the home screen. I would be happy if you'd answer too. <3) The question was, if I died, what would be the last thing which the LOLer would like to tell me. He/She wrote to me, reminding me of my studies, in a funny manner, to make me laugh, and didn't enter a real email ID in the information required blank, along with that, he/she ended the message with 'You'll Know' in stead of his/her name! LOL! Thanks so much, for being so concern LOLer. I will study hard now. You made my day, now send me another message with your name too please! I'm stuck in suspense! LOL <3 you LOLers. Feeling blessed to have my LOLers, even the newbies, and the first timers. LOVE YOU ALL! <3
7:31 PM 10/1/2015- FEELING DECISIVE....
Okay! Time for an announcement. I am going to post write-ups now, which I have written in long past. So, for some time, I'm not writing anything new. Let's see how that rings for my dear LOLers. <3 Hope you won't be disappointed, loves.
6:35 PM 10/1/2015- FEELING SCARED....
Due to the pressure of my studies and exams, I feel I'm backing down. I feel like I can't give the best of me to my LOLers. I feel like a dozen of problems on my head. I've to overcome everything, without losing my confidence.. It's difficult ;) Believe me.
6:40 PM 9/1/2015- FEELING EXCITED....
I have started this FEELING SECTION today, and so I'm excited about it... also, remember LOLers... on 19th January is my birthday! ^_^ I will turn 16! I am really eager as my friends and family spear me for the day XP And shower me with flowers, gifts, LOVE and care. Also, I'm thinking about what my LOLers are going to do for me, this time. <3 I love you all! :*
3:12 PM 9/1/2015- FEELING WORTHLESS....
My ALWAYS polite English teacher, whom I respect a lot, says that I write well, but she never appears to be appeased with my write-ups. She is not a liar, and so would never tell lies to me, and would always like to encourage me. She really loved one write-up of mine that is, The Dawn but, since then, she as never seemed very satisfied with any of my write-ups. Her opinion matters a lot. She says, 'I'm being too hard on myself.' In English exam, even though I would always top, this time, I got 23/30..... H-O-R-R-I-B-L-E as horrible as can be!
I am feeling worthless.
:) I trust you LOLers (i.e my blog visitors <3) enough to blare myself in front of you all...
My random overwhelmed feelings that I want you all to know, if you are interested..... <3
SHADES OF MY FEELINGS..
11:36 PM 30/9/2016- FEELING SAD
Today, I leave due to studies, sadly though. I will make all our departures and sacrifices worth it. Good bye. Netra takes over. Love you all, LOLers <3
06:32 PM 21/9/2016- FEELING MID NIGHT-Y
Today, I leave due to studies, sadly though. I will make all our departures and sacrifices worth it. Good bye. Netra takes over. Love you all, LOLers <3
06:32 PM 21/9/2016- FEELING MID NIGHT-Y
MY LAST FEELING UPDATE was supposed to be my last ever feeling update. But, a member of the LOLer family is SAD :O
HOW? :O
LOLer= happy!
Anyway, he is so awesome AND SO I RECOGNISE HIM HERE! His user name is Mid Night. He says things very clearly, admits his mistake. Admits his sadness. IF ONLY he could just accept sadness and turn it into happiness.
I WOULD HELP HIM. OUR LOLer FAMILY WILL. :D
I wish he wanted to be happy. For once. For us all.
LETS TELL HIM WE LOVE HIM AND WANT HIM TO BE HAPPY
Also, a surprise for him- 10 scientifically proven ways to be EXTREMELY happy :"D he DESERVES IT!
11:42 PM 19/9/2016- FEELING CEASED
Hey, I have my 12th. Can NOT focus on studies and blog together. So, time to shut down one. Of course, can not put an end to studies, so, I am ending my blog. On 30th September, I will conduct several activities and complete a 100 posts on my blog and that will be the end to it. I dont know how many will miss it, but I will. :) Though, all that doesn't matter. Take care. Good bye. #LastFeelingUpdate
10:32 AM 8/9/2016- FEELING HAPPY YET TENSED :P
Hey, you! I really miss talking to and having fun with you people on my blog. I was doing what I loved. I was doing what I wanted to do. But, I guess, I have lessons to learn in my life, to impart them to you.
I have no heart to do my 12th class But that does not count. I will have to do it and I will. So, let's hope I do it to the best of my ability. I have exams starting soon and so, I will go and study for now. But, I want to announce and congratulate you on our achievement! Our blog is about to hit a 100 posts. Wish I wasn't tensed and could enjoy the moment. Anyhow, I love it. Congratulations, you! :') It has been a result of your efforts. :'D
12:17 PM 27/8/2016- FEELING NOSTALGIC
Hey, I have my 12th. Can NOT focus on studies and blog together. So, time to shut down one. Of course, can not put an end to studies, so, I am ending my blog. On 30th September, I will conduct several activities and complete a 100 posts on my blog and that will be the end to it. I dont know how many will miss it, but I will. :) Though, all that doesn't matter. Take care. Good bye. #LastFeelingUpdate
10:32 AM 8/9/2016- FEELING HAPPY YET TENSED :P
Hey, you! I really miss talking to and having fun with you people on my blog. I was doing what I loved. I was doing what I wanted to do. But, I guess, I have lessons to learn in my life, to impart them to you.
I have no heart to do my 12th class But that does not count. I will have to do it and I will. So, let's hope I do it to the best of my ability. I have exams starting soon and so, I will go and study for now. But, I want to announce and congratulate you on our achievement! Our blog is about to hit a 100 posts. Wish I wasn't tensed and could enjoy the moment. Anyhow, I love it. Congratulations, you! :') It has been a result of your efforts. :'D
12:17 PM 27/8/2016- FEELING NOSTALGIC
HIII IDIOTS! <3 So, I was reading some stuff that the younger me had written and DAAAAMMMNNN, SHE WRITES SO MUCH BETTER THAN I DO! She is so captivating and UGH <3 Anyway, my standard of English has declined surely. I am losing brain cells and, at life in general! LOL XD
Anyway, it comes down to the fact that I hate the schooling system, and just a few more months and I WILL BE BACK ON TRACK! DOING WHAT I LOVE, LOVING WHAT I DO <3
Till, then, this struggle is a training, and trainings end. ^_^
5:32 PM 9/6/2016- FEELING PROUD
Hey so, biologically I am a girl, but honestly, I am a guy. Like, I forget birthdays, and anniversaries. That's fine. But, I FORGOT MY BLOG ANNIVERSARY EVEN! IT WAS ON 27TH MAY! UGH
gawd, and, I forgot it! I noticed it today only. ANYWAY, we celebrated it today. Thanks LOLers. I am proud of this blog, I am so much into writing because of this! I submitted my write-ups for an online magazine just now. I am writing for a competition, next!
Also, I am proud of YOU all for supporting me selflessly! :'D Happy blog anniversary! OUR BLOG IS 2 YEARS OLD! :'D
And, thanks a lot. I know I abandoned our blog for a while, but never again! <3
8:49 AM 22/5/2016- FEELING THANKFUL
because A very LONG time since I updated my 'Feeling'. You can't say that I have felt after a long time. Or maybe you can. I either did not feel at all, or felt so much, I couldn't write.
I want to tell you I am trying to get back on my feet! Trying to revive my blog. And, I am working hard for it. It is my crucial year of studies, so, it actually takes a lot of me, I won't deny. Sometimes it takes one whole hour to beautify my edit to make it attractive for you all. And, I absolutely LOVE it when you compliment me with likes, comments, reshares. My favorite parts are the comments though. <3 Appreciation and critics, both. It is like, I am getting back to the 'Good Old Days', and, I feel nice about it. I want to thank you all for caring to read what I write for you with much effort. I want to thank you for not letting me feel like I didn't get due rewards for my work. I never feel that way. <3 At least not on my blog.
I may not be chatting with you the way I used to, but we have all grown up together, created bonds that don't need everyday conversation. I know you will be there when I need you, and I promise to do the same. Thanks LOLers. <3
7:10 PM 6/3/2016- FEELING THOUGHTFUL
I was watching this video on YouTube right now about the life of iiSuperwomenii. And, I thought about the risks she took in her life. I always feel inspired because of her and I LOVE HER POSITIVE VIBES VIDEOS! I realised that she didn't know what her future had in store for her when she took to being an entertainer AFTER her masters. And, if I were at her place, I would have dumped the idea and went on to study more. I would have been too scared of future, like a lot of us. How we wish we KNEW what the future has in store for us! But.... Here's the twist, yeah? The future can change. We forget that most of the time. Even if we know what the future has for us, it doesn't matter. What matters is for us all to remember that WE CAN CHANGE THE FUTURE! BAMM! XD Isn't it getting better? If you study for an exam, you will pass. If you dont, you will not. SIMPLE. The future can change. And it ought to change depending on you. So, bleh, IDC what the future has for me ( though I can find it out through astronomy. Astronomy is pure science ) because I can change it and so, I don't need to know it. I'll mould it. I'll be the dictator of MY future. And, you all will, too. Even astronomy says the same thing. So, go, work. Make me proud. And, SHINE! ✨
2:12 PM 6/3/2016- FEELING BLISSFUL
SOOOOO....It's Shivaratri tomorrow. The day Shiva married his woman. 😍 I want to marry Shiva. And, to get to marry him, I'll have to make certain changes in my life, though. And, on the occasion, I'll make those strict changes. I LOVE MY GOD. 😙
2:19 PM 4/3/2016- FEELING LIKE LAUGHING
HEY LOLers! I feel like LAUGHING so bad right now. Nope, not because something hilarious happened, but because I suck at maths and my economics exams ( with STATS ) got me laughing at how many marks I'll get XDXD Also, today, we were just laughing and singing in the bus while coming back from school. -_- my teacher got aggitated and gave a half an hour lecture about how we need to ashamed and the bus would stop plying due to disciplinary reasons -_______- omg. My new school. *sigh* How are you all? I hope you are doing great and studying for your exams if any! 💝
10:49 PM 25/2/2016- FEELING LIKE HUGGING ALL MY LOLers
HEY, LOLers! I am an idiot kind of a person. I got 6 exams a year and got my finals starting like in 4 days. I was feeling quite DOWN yesterday, and I was just watching Superwoman videos to laugh and I ended up on her 'positive vibes' section! IT WAS THE BEST THING EVER. It gave me the strength and WILL to get back to studying and to my blogging. I miss talking to different people here. I miss calling you all LOLers. I miss you.
Next year is my final school year and is essential. And, I understand that I have to work really hard but I believe if I shoot off distractions, 24 hours are a good number of hours to study AND post for you all. Maybe I'm not online for long but I can leave you all a write-up or feeling update at least twice or at least ONCE every week? And, that I WILL do. I'll also come up with interesting activities for you and me. I hope I'm creative enough to make you want to indulge in them XD love you all. Have a great weekend, a great day, and an amazing life, in general xDxD *grabbing each one of you and HUGGING you all*
Anyway, it comes down to the fact that I hate the schooling system, and just a few more months and I WILL BE BACK ON TRACK! DOING WHAT I LOVE, LOVING WHAT I DO <3
Till, then, this struggle is a training, and trainings end. ^_^
5:32 PM 9/6/2016- FEELING PROUD
Hey so, biologically I am a girl, but honestly, I am a guy. Like, I forget birthdays, and anniversaries. That's fine. But, I FORGOT MY BLOG ANNIVERSARY EVEN! IT WAS ON 27TH MAY! UGH
gawd, and, I forgot it! I noticed it today only. ANYWAY, we celebrated it today. Thanks LOLers. I am proud of this blog, I am so much into writing because of this! I submitted my write-ups for an online magazine just now. I am writing for a competition, next!
Also, I am proud of YOU all for supporting me selflessly! :'D Happy blog anniversary! OUR BLOG IS 2 YEARS OLD! :'D
And, thanks a lot. I know I abandoned our blog for a while, but never again! <3
8:49 AM 22/5/2016- FEELING THANKFUL
because A very LONG time since I updated my 'Feeling'. You can't say that I have felt after a long time. Or maybe you can. I either did not feel at all, or felt so much, I couldn't write.
I want to tell you I am trying to get back on my feet! Trying to revive my blog. And, I am working hard for it. It is my crucial year of studies, so, it actually takes a lot of me, I won't deny. Sometimes it takes one whole hour to beautify my edit to make it attractive for you all. And, I absolutely LOVE it when you compliment me with likes, comments, reshares. My favorite parts are the comments though. <3 Appreciation and critics, both. It is like, I am getting back to the 'Good Old Days', and, I feel nice about it. I want to thank you all for caring to read what I write for you with much effort. I want to thank you for not letting me feel like I didn't get due rewards for my work. I never feel that way. <3 At least not on my blog.
I may not be chatting with you the way I used to, but we have all grown up together, created bonds that don't need everyday conversation. I know you will be there when I need you, and I promise to do the same. Thanks LOLers. <3
7:10 PM 6/3/2016- FEELING THOUGHTFUL
I was watching this video on YouTube right now about the life of iiSuperwomenii. And, I thought about the risks she took in her life. I always feel inspired because of her and I LOVE HER POSITIVE VIBES VIDEOS! I realised that she didn't know what her future had in store for her when she took to being an entertainer AFTER her masters. And, if I were at her place, I would have dumped the idea and went on to study more. I would have been too scared of future, like a lot of us. How we wish we KNEW what the future has in store for us! But.... Here's the twist, yeah? The future can change. We forget that most of the time. Even if we know what the future has for us, it doesn't matter. What matters is for us all to remember that WE CAN CHANGE THE FUTURE! BAMM! XD Isn't it getting better? If you study for an exam, you will pass. If you dont, you will not. SIMPLE. The future can change. And it ought to change depending on you. So, bleh, IDC what the future has for me ( though I can find it out through astronomy. Astronomy is pure science ) because I can change it and so, I don't need to know it. I'll mould it. I'll be the dictator of MY future. And, you all will, too. Even astronomy says the same thing. So, go, work. Make me proud. And, SHINE! ✨
2:12 PM 6/3/2016- FEELING BLISSFUL
SOOOOO....It's Shivaratri tomorrow. The day Shiva married his woman. 😍 I want to marry Shiva. And, to get to marry him, I'll have to make certain changes in my life, though. And, on the occasion, I'll make those strict changes. I LOVE MY GOD. 😙
2:19 PM 4/3/2016- FEELING LIKE LAUGHING
HEY LOLers! I feel like LAUGHING so bad right now. Nope, not because something hilarious happened, but because I suck at maths and my economics exams ( with STATS ) got me laughing at how many marks I'll get XDXD Also, today, we were just laughing and singing in the bus while coming back from school. -_- my teacher got aggitated and gave a half an hour lecture about how we need to ashamed and the bus would stop plying due to disciplinary reasons -_______- omg. My new school. *sigh* How are you all? I hope you are doing great and studying for your exams if any! 💝
10:49 PM 25/2/2016- FEELING LIKE HUGGING ALL MY LOLers
HEY, LOLers! I am an idiot kind of a person. I got 6 exams a year and got my finals starting like in 4 days. I was feeling quite DOWN yesterday, and I was just watching Superwoman videos to laugh and I ended up on her 'positive vibes' section! IT WAS THE BEST THING EVER. It gave me the strength and WILL to get back to studying and to my blogging. I miss talking to different people here. I miss calling you all LOLers. I miss you.
Next year is my final school year and is essential. And, I understand that I have to work really hard but I believe if I shoot off distractions, 24 hours are a good number of hours to study AND post for you all. Maybe I'm not online for long but I can leave you all a write-up or feeling update at least twice or at least ONCE every week? And, that I WILL do. I'll also come up with interesting activities for you and me. I hope I'm creative enough to make you want to indulge in them XD love you all. Have a great weekend, a great day, and an amazing life, in general xDxD *grabbing each one of you and HUGGING you all*
06:52 PM 13/1/2016- FEELING GUILTY
LOLers? I got my b'day in some days! But, do you know? I never remember birthdays. And, my friends generally make me happy on my birthday! I feel guilty. I never make them happy. *sigh* LOLers, friends are life, honestly. :) I also have my exams coming up. I'll not post but I'll revive my blog. I am a bit uneasy. Growing up you see? ^_____^
Much more mature than I was ever before! My writing style is changing and I GOT A NOSE PIERCING! ^____^
A lot of people hate it XD But, it make me so much better! ;) A particular nerve is pressed during nose piercing that brings changes in your way of thinking. Good or bad, for you to decide!
Anyway, I have a lot of fun packed up with me once I am back from exams. I LOVE YOU ALL FOR SUPPORTING EM SO MUCH. :)
YOU ARE RAD!
03:27 PM 12/11/2015- FEELING INACTIVE
Hey, LOLers. They say that change is the only thing which is never changing. I guess, none of us will deny that. It has been almost 4 months since I posted so, yes, a lot has changed. My blog is kind of inactive. I am inactive. everything is inactive XD I havent been well for a while now. Yesterday was Diwali ( A major beautiful festival) and on 7th this month was Dad's birthday, both the days, I wasnt well. Cold, fever and stuff. Now when you are so unwell, you don't feel good about anything. Not even your family and friends. It has been a tough time on this end. Transformation is never easy. People have been working on me to make me mature, others have stood by me but several more were there to bog me down. My life and I have changed the most during this time. In between I had even stopped feeling! (VERY VERY VERY unlike me), I had stopped expressing. I realised that I was giving others too much time. It's the time to change now. To write more, to MYSELF. And, not just to be there for everyone else. No one deserves you as much as you do. Not that everyone is against you. Many will love you. MANY. but, the time spent with oneself is the BEST. I have come to cherish it now. :) My time, with myself and LOLers. <3 Sudden realizations make things so beautiful. The balance is always needed, and here I am, reviving it! So, here I am just saying hi! Telling you I will get back to my blog more frequently. The only thing Im scared about is my 11th and 12th grade, and that studies shouldnt be affected. That I wont get an incentive to leave my blog. People demand so many things, often contradictory, out of me. Havent found a solution to that yet. Tell me if you have. :) Bye for now. You will be called LOLers again when you talk to me on my profile now. XD <3
06:29 PM 13/7/2015- FEELING PULLED BACK
Problems. Problems Problems. I'm so STUCK. I've homework, studies, blog, competitions and PAST.
My past is haunting me. Everything from my past at the same time! People from my past, weird people, the people who hurt me are coming to my mind. Something or the other is happening and, I'm just losing my grounds, and being reminded of them. them all.
Though, I'm happy to find myself powerful enough to cope up with it better now, than a few months back. This strength is supplied to me by a VERYYYYY close friend of mine, named Vivek. However, I'll have to let him go forever after some time too. I was planning to talk to him and let him go forever today itself! However, these hings happened, and honestly, no one will understand or comfort me the way he does! :( I don't know whether to talk this off with him or not. I want to break this friendship off soon, and I will. I'm just not getting the right time. </3 He means so much to me. He renews everything and everyone who comes his way. He gives everyone a better life and just the BEST experiences. See, LOLers. See my fate. It's so HORRIBLE, ROTTEN AND EMPTY that I couldn't find a better life, even with him. May Shiva bless my friend forever and always with happiness and success. <3
I love you, LOLers.
05:23 PM 3/7/2015- FEELING AMAZED
Hey! This one is a dedication to Justin! He has a lot of problems but, he is SOOOO STRONG! I'm amazed how strong he is! ^______^ He is like my big brother! Any girl will be lucky to get him! His lil angel is also SOOOOO lucky to have a brother like him! ^_________^
<3 LOLer family is SOOOOO proud of you, Justin! Keep calm, keep strong! Heaven's got a plan for you! <3 The worst part of your life will soon be over! :')))
I love you, bro! *huggggg*
06:34 PM 20/5/2015- FEELING TENSED
Over brooding...
I remember how I would reply to a 'Hi' on a group chat when I was busy or even least wanted to, just so that the person doesn't feel bad that no one is replying to them, or feels hesitant before typing the first hi again. I used to take care of even such small details! But, i'm just not the same person anymore. That is so, because I see that I'm the only one over thinking, and being over concern, over-thoughtful and overcareful!
I've changed.
I am a LOLster, I shouldn't change for worse, but it's helping me adapt.
The LOLster who wants to inspire everyone, is so broken inside.
How can she inspire you all if she behaves that way! The only reason she survives is to give you all motivation, there is no other reason for her life.
But, she's losing it. She's losing her dream, and she ca't help it anymore. I am sorry. :(
06:26 PM 20/5/2015- FEELING LONELY
Hey Feeling update after 1 month! I have felt a lot lately! I got an internship of a museum guide! I'm so excited for it! My Grades were good too! However, I feel lonely, because of my friends...
They like, don't care about me anymore. In spite of my LOlers, I feel lonely, because these were friends from so many years and always took care of me, supported me in all that they could. They helped me be what I am today, and yet now, I'm not even dust to them.
If that's so, then I let them go. Even at home, I'm having a tough time with my family. No one cares, I feel. Like, really no one. Like, there is no reason for em to exist.
I have nothing to be proud of. I wish I could just go somewhere all alone away from everything, just being connected to my LOLers!
Currently, I'm not quite happy. Though, I hope I'll be. #NoLove take acre LOLers, I hope you are having a good day. I hope people understand you. I hope you are not going through what I am. take care :) stay blessed!
07:54 PM 21/4/2015- FEELING DEJECTED
Hey LOLers..Long time, right? Anyway! I love you with all the depths of my soul, still! And I hope you love me too. My blog hasn't been very active I admit. I am sorry! Life has changed a lot since before. New school. New regrets. Missing old school. Misunderstandings and *sigh* Let's let it be LOLers. I've reached High School now and have very less time left for myself and writing. I am so sorry. I don't really know how but I will find a way to you guys soon, to be active like before!
Till then just know that I REALLY love you, and each one of you are the most BEAUTIFUL and HANDSOME people I've REALLY REALLY REALLY EVER met. And I mean it.
LOLer rock! I love you. ^_^ You make LOLster the happiest, and she is so blessed to have you all. Thanks for everything. I hope you can wait for me till I'm back in FULL SWING! ;)
Take care.
01:29 PM 26/3/2015- FEELING IN A FIX
So, the morning cracked open to a lot of happening in LOLster's life today. My grandma is fasting due to Navratray. The World Cup is on between Australia and India, and I'm praying for India to win. Zayn had left 1D yesterday, so people are cutting and committing suicide, and I feel helpless as I can't help any of them but, I'm not a directioner. My brother and me are fighting about who will take bath first. There is a hassle in house about my new school, and the exam that follows. My friend, Meghna's birthday. Vaibhav has pissed me off. I am feeling so irritated that I'll have to leave my friends after some time due to change of school. No notifications. No hangouts. I have to study, I can't. I am feeling helpless. I think love is slimy. -_-
I was about to text dad some of my feelings, I drew back. I was about to send some audio for some kids who call me mom. ^_^ :/ But, I'm not in a state to give them my best. PPPPhHHhheEEeeeEEEwwWWWw and, A LOT more things.
Okay.... yeah... Mood swings.
So.. more or less, I can't really help anything happening in my surroundings right now. I am really confused, about..... everything you see?
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I CAN'T EVEN GIVE MY BLOG, MY WHOLE SELF.!?
A pitiable state I am in! :// I don't know anything.
I just wish I could escape the world.... I wish I could just do what I want! I wish I could steal some time for myself. I wish, someone would understand.
Never the less, I love you LOLers. And, it has struck my mind to let go of LOL (my blog). But, I can't, and I won't, because LOLers.
Too long, no? Boring?? ^_^ Bye. I need you all LOLers. You are almost ALL that I have!
04:37 PM 20/3/2015- FEELING PROUD
Hey! LOLers! This one is a tribute to Snigdha Homroy! ;) Doesn't the name itself sound good? :)
She is my LOLer too! And I love her. She was a bit low today, so I want to express how proud I feel to have her as my friend. I am quite happy that she is around me most of the time. She always helps everyone and never refuses if you ask for anything. She is sooooooooooooo sweet, and always makes everyone feel better. Maybe today is her breaking point. A lot of LOLers these days have their breaking points I see. But, Snigdha, on the behalf of each LOLer, I want to tell you that You are AMAZING, and we love you. It's actually true. Being a part of the LOLer family, you have extended warmth to others, and all my LOLers are ready to repay.
YOU DESERVE HAPPINESS, but no one will be able to give it to you, except yourself. We love you. Cheer up. Always here for you. You rock.
12:16 AM 20/3/2015- FEELING DISSATISFIED
It's late at night, and I'm working on my blog. Exams ended today,and I was expected to be really delighted. CRAP.
Wasn't a real good day, anyway. Promoted it on Facebook and G+, anyhow, I find G+ better.
Whatever. I came across a lot of LOLers today, who were sad, and dissatisfied with everything in their lives. So, was I today. HORRIBLE DAY, I tell you LOLers.
Anyway, let's see. I hope things get better. And, Isabella is one of my best LOlers!
She wants to tell you all that she loves you :')
She is also stress and unwell... give her love... We are a LOLer family so, we are obliged to do that no? Spread love ^_^ I hoep you all had a great day anyway. I love it how LOLers are always there for em. Thanks my LOVES :*
07:10 PM 19/3/2015- FEELING LIKE CRYING MY EYES OUT
So, there is this LOLer of mine, whom I really love, his parents 'went to talk to God', but I'm sure they are blessing him by his side. How would they feel if he would cry like that? I understand how hard his life has been till now. I know how he lost the girl he loved, but what about his friends? They are his family. He can't go back to his girl and get his 'Family' in trouble.
My tip: Forget her. Block her. Let her be. You need to move on. I know, how this kills you, and her, but 'Family' is important, isn't it? Whatever happens to the girl, will be based on whats she decides for herself. You are a LOLer, and so, you are not allowed to cry. Stay strong.
We love you for now and forever. Try taking to Mumma Pappa. They will answer. Smile for them , and 'Family' :)
11:57 PM 18/3/2015- FEELING ELATED!
I AM SO DELIGHTED! MY LAST EXAM TOMORROW! After that, all my attention goes to my LOLera nd my blog, solely. I love each and every one of you, never forget that!
03:41 PM 14/2/2015- FEELING LOVED
On this occasion of Valentine, I asked my LOLers if they think I'm in love. Let's see if their guess work is right! XDXD Moreover, I started the page of the comparison about Lord Shiva (My Love), and me. By the way, ALL my LOLers are my Valentines! I love you all! :*
08:56 PM 2/2/2015- FEELING LIKE AN EMOTIONAL FOOL....
Why? Because I am one. This is it! I need to stop hurting myself... </3
07:07 PM 31/1/2015- FEELING NERVOUS....
Hey LOLers! <3 so, I'm feeling better than before now. Also, I'm participating in an essay writing competition by Indialogue. So, that theme is World Harmony. LOLers ;) wait, I'll post for you my submission for the competition. I'm nervous, I haven't won ANY competition till now, but I don't know why you LOLers make me feel like I'm a good writer, anyway! ;) Thanks for that, baes!
<3 LOLster love you, LOLers!
07:28 PM 26/1/2015- FEELING VERY MAIM....
OKAY! I'M FEELING MISERABLE! Gautham, my friend, remember? :/ Okay, we are not friends, anymore. I don't really know, who was the one to dismantle our friendship.
Another close friend lied to me too.
FEELING HORRIBLE! I'm trembling and am just getting the worst feeling I can from my past. I won't like to describe it further, but I pray that it ends soon. Please, I need comfort! I can't take it anymore!!!! </3 LOLers :'( LOLster isn't good, right now.
07:28 PM 26/1/2015- FEELING WARM....
Hey! So, Happy Republic Day!! :) Yesterday, the MUN got over, and guess what! I got a really nice friend named Gautham. The last day when we were leaving, our departure was so warm ^_^
It is very nice to have a friend like him, I mean till now. :) He seems sensible and of course, down-to-earth! He's doing his Journalism course!!!! OH MY GOD!! I WANT TO DO IT TOO! :( LOL! *Touch Wood!* :) I hope we remain friends forever.
I know I haven't won the award of the best journalist, but my 'boss' told me that 'I really appreciate your work, but I couldn't give awards to you or any other student of your school, as you are the host school.' OMG OMG OMG! Him saying it is enough! It's more than the award!! :))))
<3 Thansk LOLers. You guys have given me such confidence to grab this opportunity.. <3
07:29 PM 23/1/2015- FEELING BLESSED....
Hey! So, todayw as my first day at an MUN (If you don't know what that is, click on it.) ! And, it was all so exceptional! First, it was costly, and my dad managed to pay no matter what! "If you are interested in it, I won't mind paying." he told me! And, oh my god! I am acting as a reporter in the International Press!!!!!!! <3 My dream job!!!!! ^_^
Today, was my first day of it. I was not looking very beautiful, of course, but, I tried my best out there. I was a reporter for the SPARKMUN' Order of The Phoenix (That's a link too, which you can check out.) The Executive Board was so awesome, it consisted of Gautam Balaji and Aradhya Tripathi, and no one could fit more for the job! I ushered Gautam to the cantine of my school, and I know SO much about him, already. he seems like a really nice guy! :) Offered me a chocolate almost 5 times, but I refused! XDXDXD Anyway, :) It was the best it could be and the I.P head, Sarabjeet Singh, is my 'boss' or should I say, 'informal boss' for the 3 days of MUN. :) I'm growing as a writer. I know I'm not that good at writing though XD :) But I hope I'll improve. Tomorrow I've to ask question from the Executive Board (i.e Gautam and Aradhya), as a reporter! ^_^ Isn't that so cool? :) <3 I love this MUN thing. Please pray for me to work better. Sir Sarabjeet didn't seem very appeased ;) Anyhow, I want to win the Best Reporter Award too! :( Pray for me, please! :) I hope I achieve it. :) I need to believe in myself <3 Love you LOLers, you read my work, and are always tehre to encourage me! <3 Thanks... :*
03:57 PM 20/1/2015- FEELING THE BEST EVER POSSIBLE ....
Yesterdayw as my birthday! ^_^ Most of my LOLers gave me tremendous amount of love! :) Thanks so much! :) <3 My birthday started with my dad gifting me a phone at 12:00 A.M. which I can sue but only after my exams. :) The day consisted of VERY BEAUTIFUL gifts, and even more EXCEPTIONAL wishes from my friends and LOLers! ^_^ <3
My friends at school gifted em a tasty big cake, and other gifts, like, pens, spiral binds, a promise to obey me for the day, CHOCOLATES! ^_^ And, LOVE!!! :)
BUT BUT BUT... My LOLers were noooooooooo less! ^_^ Their love for me was also multitudinous, and their wishes even better! :* <3
I even had a very good bash, as after all it was my Sweet Sixteen!
I came across some surprises that made me sooooo gleeful too! :)
You were also a part of it as I thought about my LOLers, however, couldn't get to you. Sorry :(
XP But today, I am back to square one, and the day is ordinary. feels odd ;)
Okay, so, I shouldn't be here, but I so wished to! It was my BEST EVER birthday, and all thanks to my loved loved loved LOlers ^_^ :) :)
Wait for me, I am not very regular these days.. :) <3 Thanks a lot for everything!!! I love you all soooooooo much!
03:54 PM 14/1/2015- FEELING RESPONSIBLE ....
So today, I, along with my classmates, went about in the streets shouting for spreading awareness about road safety. Most of the time, they repeated the dialogue after me, and I couldn't stop, so, I've lost my voice XD LOL..
I feel so responsible because of doing it as it feels nice to take the credit of making people aware of Road Safety, which is really essential! <3 Once in a lifetime experience.
Tomorrow, I've my English speaking skills test, pray for me! Love you, LOLers... <3
03:54 PM 14/1/2015- FEELING UNANSWERED....
Hey LOLers <3 I've been trying to work this system out for too long now; the system of question mania. There is a small feature of question mania on the right hand side of my blog. The questions are always about YOU AND ME. I'm nothing without my LOLers! Trust me! <3 This blog is nothing with you! And, I thought of those question to be interactive and thoughtful, but I wonder why I am getting almost NO answers. Should I stop the feature? Would you like to use it LOLers? Message me, or comment? You're view is NEEDED and GREATLY IMPORTANT! <3 Love you LOLers. LOLster will miss you. <3
11:15 PM 12/1/2015- FEELING OBJECTED....
Hey, LOLers? <3 Daddy got stricter than ever. He said that I'd get my laptop only on weekends, now, for a short span of time. :'( That means, your LOLster wouldn't be in contact with you daily. I know, I said that before, but I managed to escape it. This time, the fire is longer and more intense. :'( Exams coming up, the ones that will determine my future. All I can ask for is your prayers, please! And, please, don't forget me or stop loving me less, please! I love you all a lot, LOLers. You all are JUST mine! <3 LOLers!!!!
1:o7 AM 11/1/2015- FEELING LOVED....
I know it's too late for me to post anything, but I am done studying and this is my treat to myself ; my word with my LOLers. <3 I am feeling loved by my LOLers, who continuously encourage me to just improve and never back down. More over, I was conversing with my brother just now, about a post which said that students think about what they would do if a terror attack struck the school, right away! And, my brother told me, that he thought about it too, when he was a school student. He said that he also daydreamed about whom he would save and how? He said that he would save me! <3 AWWWW! I mean I know it's hypothetical, but doesn't he sound cute? It sounds even better when it comes from a brother who NEVER expresses! I am feeling loved because of him also. Though, initially I felt awkward as we are not open to each other much, but we both know how much we love each other, and will always do, in spite of a multitude of fights each day! LOLers, thanks for reading <3 He's elder to me, and is ordering me to sleep now, I've school tomorrow and have to wake up a 5:30! See, how much a love you LOLers? LOLster loves all LOLers.. <3 that is, I love you all! :)
11:35 PM 11/1/2015- FEELING SLEEPY....
I plan to study for a while, now, seriously, and sleep. Who gave me the enough will to be deprived of sleep and study? My well-wishers; my LOLers. Your LOLster thanks you to the core! ^_^ She will study now, and will get you know of her great results. <3 Thanks LOLers!
5:10 PM 11/1/2015- FEELING BLESSED....
So, this really cool LOLer of mine sent me a mail through the contact system on my blog, answering a question of the question mania (you can find it on the right side of the home screen. I would be happy if you'd answer too. <3) The question was, if I died, what would be the last thing which the LOLer would like to tell me. He/She wrote to me, reminding me of my studies, in a funny manner, to make me laugh, and didn't enter a real email ID in the information required blank, along with that, he/she ended the message with 'You'll Know' in stead of his/her name! LOL! Thanks so much, for being so concern LOLer. I will study hard now. You made my day, now send me another message with your name too please! I'm stuck in suspense! LOL <3 you LOLers. Feeling blessed to have my LOLers, even the newbies, and the first timers. LOVE YOU ALL! <3
7:31 PM 10/1/2015- FEELING DECISIVE....
Okay! Time for an announcement. I am going to post write-ups now, which I have written in long past. So, for some time, I'm not writing anything new. Let's see how that rings for my dear LOLers. <3 Hope you won't be disappointed, loves.
6:35 PM 10/1/2015- FEELING SCARED....
Due to the pressure of my studies and exams, I feel I'm backing down. I feel like I can't give the best of me to my LOLers. I feel like a dozen of problems on my head. I've to overcome everything, without losing my confidence.. It's difficult ;) Believe me.
6:40 PM 9/1/2015- FEELING EXCITED....
I have started this FEELING SECTION today, and so I'm excited about it... also, remember LOLers... on 19th January is my birthday! ^_^ I will turn 16! I am really eager as my friends and family spear me for the day XP And shower me with flowers, gifts, LOVE and care. Also, I'm thinking about what my LOLers are going to do for me, this time. <3 I love you all! :*
3:12 PM 9/1/2015- FEELING WORTHLESS....
I am feeling worthless.
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